Know what you really want

I'm not sure if what I say is the one I want. I say one thing but I like the other idea. Should it always be like this? I sometimes find dificulties knowing what I want.


I had this experience again yesterday. I don't know if its because I'm tired, I feel alone or this is really me. I tend to say words I don't like and kept inside me what i really want. I ask someone yesterday to go away, where infact I want him to stay. As a result, he follows what I've said and went home, he left me hating him even more for doing such act. He texted me that same night, that he don't want me to get mad at him so he tries to follow everything I say, but it's not enough for me. I know it's my fault since he does things exactly the way I said it. But should he always follow me? Should I always tell him what I want? Should I always tell him the truth?


There are also times where truth hurts and it may leave your life like a shattered glass. Should we accept it? or should we leave it behind? Things in life is not easy, we have to deal with different things, we have to work with different people and we have to understan different personalities. Why isn't the world made as perfect as I imagined it to be?


:SIGH: I guess that's why YOUR here. Since you know me more than they know me, since I trust you all my happiness, all my worries and all my problem, you know excatly what's happening. Now should I still tell you what I really want? or it's useless since you already know? I know your not an oracle, and that you can't read my mind, but there are simple things I need not to speak.