We have our ups and downs in life, but what happen when after the down you fall again? when after you have solve a can of worm comes another problem? and what if your still holding on a mournfulness loss there's another mess? Oh life, oh life... why are your being cruel? Some says life will never be sweet without sorrow, the other says it's a test for you to have more faith in Him. What ever it was, we don't have hold on our future.
I just lost my Mom recently, few days after, we lost an Angel and his mother is in the hospital for survival for about four to five days. Luckily she'll be out today, feeling better, being okay but missing inside. I just imagine, what if we can turn back times? If only time machines where invented, then yes! probably I will. Now I still have to think of many things: I should go out apply for a new job, my younger brother's education, my brother's future, our electricity, our house, my plans, our business and a lot more. Should I deal with it as part of my PROBLEMS? No I will not! but instead think of it as a challange. It's about time to show my mama how responsible I am, it's about time to make her even proud of me.
After days of agony, I come to realize that what I have to do is to accept everything. God made all of these for reasons, I may not know what are they, but I know that's for good. He might get her for me to be more responsible and for her to be in His side and feel better, to rest in peace and found the real happiness in heaven.
It's hard to accept, but if you dig deeper and try to see God's plan, then you can let go of the pass without worrying the future. Sadness is a battle you have to win, because if you don't, it will take over you, and it's okay to cry if that's your way of letting go, and I do, I cry a lot and it makes me feel better.
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